Him

 I can not say that I regret him, because if I try then my heart will scream for me to stop the pain. I want him, I want to lay next to him. Be intertwined with him. I want the safety of his arms around me. To think of how fast my heart went, then his kids, it slowed the pace...the I love you, my name, the pet names he gave me, the way they sounded in his voice...how can I find a better high? I can not say that I regret him, because if I try, I would be giving up happiness...