Back at the pearly gates

 

Alone with my pain, alone with my shame, alone with no one to talk to and no one to blame.

My mind is my prison, no way to escape, even though I helped build this place.

I can't seem to wake, there is so much at stake, my very soul, my life, my fate. When once not long ago, I was knocking on the pearly gates. I feel so empty now, feeling only hate.

Now it seems, I'm falling fast, reaching for leverage, I can't seem to grasp, clinging on to what I used to be, hoping somehow Lord, you will set me free.

But time it seems is going fast, the clock is ticking, don't know how much longer I can last.

Divided within myself, I feel only pain, but with your grace Lord I can bury my shame and learn to be myself again. Just need a hand Lord, to set myself free, to get back on the path you have set for me.

Won't give up no matter how much it hurts, patiently waiting for you to say the word, to flip the switch, so my voice may be heard.

Till then Lord I'll patiently wait, till you see me again at the pearly gates.

Michael Schweickert