High School Bullshit

I am feeling very empty at the moment,
I have feelings but I rarely show it,
people put me on the back burner,
and my emotions begin to stir,
but then I remember that I am numb,
my real friends is now a small sum,
maybe not even that, maybe none,
while I'm sitting at home I see them having fun,
that is just when I want to crawl into a ball,
and in my bed I begin to bawl,
I am more broken than I was yesterday,
I at least thought my friends were here to stay,
but I guess not that's what they all do,
the bond that was once like glue,
formed into something completely different,
and you begin to pick up on the hint,
that they don't love you anymore,
at least not as much as they did before,
so yes I am lost and eternally scarred,
and my self confidence is definitely charred,
but I will eventually be gone out of this town,
and my life will no longer be upside down.