Lost

I know where I am going yet still feel lost.
Everyone around me laugh and carry on,
They're dancing in the summer, leaping along
And theres little old me, stuck in this frost.

I do have friends, a few from travels,
But none of them truly understand me
We can be out and about, drinking together,
But that wont stop me from feeling lonely.

Theres a battle within, its driving me insane
And I wanna be free and confide in others,
But I push away anyone that gets close,
Tries to see me, Anyone that tries to uncover.

Where do you go in life if you dont know?
I don't even know what makes me smile
I am trying to discover myself and life,
But feel this is going to take me a while.

Today I stood still, stood still in the street.
Saw everyone in a hurry, somewhere to be,
I wondered what it was like to be them,
To not be so completely free.

Have a life, have hobbies and a future
Something to challenge their minds
I want that. But I won't let myself have that.
In a full circle all the time, looking for something to find.