Insane

What is this?!

Thoughts..... MY THOUGHTS !!!

MY FUCKING THOUGHTS !!

They're driving me insane.. Insane.... IN SANE !

Killings.... Your killings... Suicide... Your suicide... No.... Not yours.... But mine...

BUT WHY?!

Everyday I'm fighting this demon, I'm fighting to not end it.

But damn it the thought of seeing my mother again.... Oh god, yes the feeling would be so bittersweet....

Bittersweet... Bitter.... Sweet

Oh god... Oh my god... Oh my fucking god !

My thoughts I'm blaming myself and don't know why but I am....

Me... I AM !!

Going insane everytime I'm left with my thoughts. Like that child that loses his mother in the store... 

But why?

Why me?