Nothing feels as profoundly miserable as being betrayed by someone close to you
crushed by someone you love
someone who gathers you into their arms and strokes your face, and then turns around
like they never knew you
did Jesus feel like that when Judas turned him over for fucking silver
when he was beaten to pulp while John watched on?
did he hang his head in shame when Peter denied him?
Adonai
how do you move on from that?
how do you find strength to trust again
Adonai
please, what button do I have to press or class do I have to take or pill do I swallow to move on
why am I always answered with silence
always feel terribly crushed
Why am I always so tired
when they hung Jesus on the cross, and he had his view of the whole world before him
did he weep for his betrayal or for the nails in his hands?
did he weep for feeling so utterly alone or the thorns on his head?
no amount of alcohol can numb these thoughts
i don't believe in god
I don't believe in much these days
he should be comforted
Adonai
at least Mary cried at his feet
- Author: brandon k f ( Offline)
- Published: April 23rd, 2017 13:47
- Category: Reflection
- Views: 41
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