Find him

She said come help me
Find him
But she trapped me in a
Game I couldn't win
She mixed a variety of alcohol
In a large cup
I drank to drink, so bottoms up
She took me to find him up in her room
The lights were on, yet there still was gloom
Alone we stayed, we didn't go
She started telling me things she wanted only me to know
I didn't want her to want me, I just wanted to be wanted
She was an adult and I was just a kid
She put on a porn movie
She said she wants to do this To Me
And that's where it starts
Just another night where my life fell apart
From the bed to the shower back to the bed
What's going on? the Booz spins my head
Was it me who wanted it? why did she choose me?
I was just a hot teenager, she wanted to use me
I didn't know how to stop anything
Is it me or her, who's to blame?
I wanted a adult to love and respect me
instead she got me drunk just to neglect me
And the shame, In this pain,
Why do I feel shame
For the twisted rules of some one else's game
We never did find him
I don't even think he was lost
Trusting some one was at priceless cost
I wonder if she had him secretly watching
As if it was all planed
For me to be entertainment for her and her man
I wonder if
It never would've happened, If only I didn't go
But wondering about it is pointless because I'll truly never know