Fucking Broken

Have you ever been hurt?
like the type of hurt that can never be fixed...
Hell I've been to therapist after therapist but the shit just can't help
They tell you let's talk let's talk just tell me how you're feeling
So I stare blankly at the wall thinking
I'm thinking I just sit there and think about everything I wanna say
I just wanna stand up and yell I'm fucking hurt I'm hurting so fucking bad and 
But yet I sit there with the fakest friendly smile I can put on and I say I'm fine
and then I leave....I leave when I should've stayed I was quiet when I should've spoken up
I don't know what's wrong with me I just can't lay all of this on the table ultimately for someone to say well let's fix it
How the fuck am I supposed to fix it
How broken I am
I am so fucking broken
I've been broken for a while
and there's nothing that can be done about it
I mean how do you even cope with that?
Being broken knowing nothing will ever make you feel whole again
How the fuck do I cope when my most prized possession being stolen from me
I was stolen
my innocent mind and soul was taken away from me..
So you tell me.....what the fuck do I do?
I mean you tell me what you would do....
If one day you were one of the happiest people in the world and within the snap of a finger it was taken away
If everything you once saw in beautiful color full of life was now black and gray and all just shit
They say that hurting makes you stronger once you get over it
But how the fuck can you get over it if it's taken such a toll on your life