Hold It In

I'm not taken. I'm always available. 

My body, no longer sacred.

My virginity taken by an old lover,

Who threw me away after I stopped existing.

I'm so lonely, I bet he's out falling in love.

I'm all by myself, I bet he's chilling with his friends.

I cry myself to sleep, I bet he's texting his new girl, wishing her sweet dreams.

It's like my whole world fell apart after he left me to fiend for myself.

I never loved him, I never gave him my heart, I just gave him my body.

Trying desperately to make him stay, please don't leave me.

He was my only chance, my only one, yet not my one and only.

Because he left me here and I have no idea where he is.

I just crave the feeling of being wanted, the line is empty and my self esteem is low.

I'd give myself away to anyone who wants me, I'm pathetic, I'm miserable.

It's not fair how no one calls me and all his friends and family think I'm not good enough.

I'm young and he's old enough to be my father yet everyone says he could do better.

But I just want his love again, even though he's just like anyone else.

He gave me a chance and showed me attention, but suddenly he's gone and I'm just trying to hold it in.