Why cant I move?

WHY CANT I MOVE!?
Im screaming, words are pouring down my cheek,
im almost certain my situation is bleak.
Im trying, my oh my am I trying,
im trying to live, although may as well be dying.
Why cant i move? why cant i talk?
I need to go, I need to walk.
My soul moves but feet don't follow,
the walls are caving, every thing's becoming hollow.
Im hurting, dear god its hurting me,
no matter how hard I try I cannot free.
Away from this place, from these thoughts,
punishment to myself, dragged to the courts.
My whole self i would swap,
to try life that's not such a drop.
To wake up and see life in a mesmerising way,
please god please, just one normal day.
Sarah laws