Isolation

On these sidelines, I sit, remembering

Moments in time, not so long ago, when I knew that I was the leader of my pack

So on track, it seriously did seem

All of it

The entire hot mess, all the way down to my 24 year old man

He kept his dick in his hand for far too long, rather tham sticking it inside of me

I wanted it deep

I wanted it long

I wanted to keep him hard all the time

It was confusion that overwhelmed me terribly

Right in the middle if busting my ryhme, I was taken away by a false rythym 

Tazed 

Shackled

Robbed if my own will

Things suddenly all went down, and started spinning backward all the way to the point of them haunting me still to this day

It was not the way I had envisioned it at all

Torn into pieces by the silence aside from a cattle call at meal times twice per day

So many masculine creatures that would have gladly let me have my way with them

Some familiar faces attached to similar names

I could not even tell if I was alive or dead

So many reindeer games dancing through my head

Thrown into isolation

Starved

Confined

All because the entire neighborhood though that they could mastermind me somehow

I am still unsure of all the details that composed their freakish little plan

Quite certain that it is still in full swing motion

Isolating me again, this time a bit more cleverly

So obvious, though, still

I cannot find work

I cannot find my way

I cannot find much of anything now

Just waiting to hear from my attorney who says that she will see to it that my ship again sets sail

Starting out my journey all over again

I cannot deal with any form if failure for even one second more

The door has finally hit me in the ass, as if I haven't been here already...

10/14/2011