Releasing.

Sometimes you have to let stuff go so you can mend
I wont pretend I'm not still grieving the loss of old friends
or don't still feel bad about some of the things that I said
I'm just trying to one up the present version of myself so I can
breathe again internally and not have to pretend.
I want to be a creator and not destruct others because now I know
how it feels to be left in the rubble of my own karma and trouble,
I've created destruction and still hear the whispers of the past
calling me back to destruct... I left my tracks but I'll only
return to give back.

It's 2:34am at night and I'm digging in to my own core
letting my soul pour onto paper
It's at these times I explore my darkness and sour into the depths
of my mind
Bad things come in threes and I've reached four
I'm ready for the lessons ahead and acknowlege what I've done
I'm ready to learn more
not for ego's sake but for the core of my soul.
I'm ready to feel it all and let it go.