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"Hey big man , it's been awhile huh? See I don't know if you're listening or not but I'm sorry. Sorry for all the shit I've done , lusting , greediness, and wrath. But please I need help I don't know what to do anymore man! All this shit that I felt this pain and hatred. I need it to stop ,please because it's hurts me , my family , and my best friends , anyone around me . Please hear me out man ,do I need to sell my soul ? Do something holy? Go to church? Please help me !" I plead

Nothing but silence for 40 minutes , I just sat there waiting for an answer. But my patience went away .

" see I fucking knew it ! You never listen to me ! You listen to everyone else but me ! I asked for very few things , I fucking thanked you for everything, I prayed to you everymotherfuckingday and still no answer!
Everybody told me I just need to wait ! I've waited for 8 fucking years ,hmm 8 fucking years, they told me that you'll be there when I need you the most ! Well?! Where were you when i was pressured into drugs?! Huh?! Where were you when my best friend died right before my eyes ?!? Huh?! Where were you when I lost her ?!? Huh?! Where were you man ?! I need you man but you never fucking bothered with me !!! You always ignored me ! This is the exact same reason why I lost faith in you !......... If you never wanted me , fucking kill me right now ! Get done with it ! Because I can do this all morning! Huh?!?! Strike me!! ANSWER ME!!!!"