Abuse

Thinking how if somebody loves you why would they bruise you
If somebody don't wanna lose you, why would they abuse you
Why your not allowed to do shit, but he got an excuse too
While your lookin at him, wandering what did I do?
You say I'm so perfect & you love the way I am
A couple beers a couple shots, now your using your hands
& for what? Pickin a song that you didn't want to hear
I tell you I'm an anxious person, you still instill me with fear
You get annoyed instead of sad when you see me in tears
Tell me if I'm just so worthless, why are you even here
You know it makes me sick when you ignore me to play games
You know how much that hurts me, you like to see me in pain
You think I deserve it, shut up don't deny it
Cause if it ain't true then why do you get violent
Why do your eyes get black and dilated
Why do you feel rage when you look at my face
I tell you how I feel and you tell me to stop talking and push me away
Switch my words around saying I talk about ur daughter
Just another excuse for you to get louder
It's like you wanna hate me, you wanna deflate me, my self esteem is shit..and wasn't before you dated me.
Maybe because a few times I punched you
You nvr felt it though, you were to drunk too
Funny how our arguments stem from alcohol
In the begginning it wasn't like this now you feel repulsed
& im feeling it's all my fault
& you end up feeling the same
We both want to say that we're both the one to blame
But at the end of the day, you'll say it was all me
Cause you say you don't care, but you got a reputation to keep