I need her

No matter how hard I try ......she's always in my mind .........why? Why do I feel this way?........

I need help to escape this fate
If someone can hear me that would be great
Because I'm afraid if I go any further she would use my heart as bait
If I do get played , then death is all that awaits

I don't know what I'm saying
This pain keeps getting stronger daily
Why am I so afraid to lose her , but yet I don't want anything to do with her
She's part of the reason why I kill myself at night
Reason why I keep walking under the street light
Thinking to myself if all this shit is right

I mean how can it , if what I feel is true then would she be down
Would she be real, i just can't take this shit
Would she feel what I do

My friend he told me he just wants to see me happy
He said he's tired of seeing me like this , telling me that I should get over that bitch
That I can start a new life a even better one than my old life
That I just need to keep looking for the one and make her my wife

I just have something to say to that special girl
If you're out there ,please let me know where ,when ,and how
Because I truly need you now
I can make you my queen all I have to do is give you my crown
I want to love tonight , make sure the touch is right , because girl I need you by my side