Anxiety

High anixous feeling has hit me again
The anticipation of a room full of new
People almost makes me feel sick;
My chest is tight it feels my every breath is killing me
My heart is erratic and my hand are clammy .
I hope i dont mess up giving off the first impression
I want to curl in a ball or worse go home.
My mouth is dry , As they say hi
My head is in spin
Why can i be normal
Why cant anxiety just give in
I want to recoil
People ask whats wrong
Im shaking im nervous
I want it to stop.
Trying to ride the feeling
Smiling and hoping
There not seeing
I just want people to understand
Its a feeling i can not help
No matter how much i plan

Why cant i be normal
Why cant i speak
Why does it feel like everyone is watching me?

I think i may go home spend the night
Alone
I m better off in my bubble away
From people and there troubles.