Wish You Knew

I'm looking outside my window losing track of time
No surprise I'm thinking of you
I've waited for far too long to tell you how I feel
Since the day we met, I've been flying in the clouds
I told her "you can't draw for shit"
She laughed and I fell in love with it
It was the beginning of the end for me
Yeah I thought she was the most beautiful girl
Her bright smile blinded me
And the banter reeled me in
But I've never fallen for a girl before
Figured I would have never fallen anytime soon
This crush would pass by
But she was different and I didn't think I would need her in my life
But she just made me feel like myself
The person I was meant to be
So I would see her in class and stare at her
My feelings would intensify as she would walk into class
Hide them away like the sun hides from Antarctica
Conceal them everytime I talked to her, but they were so puissant
And I would always go the day thinking of her
Laid awake every night thinking of her and when I woke up she was the first thing I thought of
And this would go on for a couple months
Day in and day out
Sunrise and sunset
Fast forward to the last day of class and I wanted to ask for her number
But the seconds went by like a shot clock and I had no courage
Summer passed and it was hell
Everyday thinking of her with no way to contact her
I couldn't tell her how I felt or how she enamored my anxious heart
So I turned to the liquor and lost my mind
I would suppress my feelings with every sip
And looking back I regret it
I guess I was stupid for not knowing how to handle the situation
But I wish you knew how you made me feel

School started again in the fall
I couldn't wait to see her, I would look for her all over campus
I finally had the courage to tell her what I couldn't
I wanted to tell her that she's the first girl I've ever fallen for
It was the perfect time to tell her she's the perfect girl
The semester has gone by and I haven't seen her
I thought she must have transferred to another school
But one day I ran into her friend and joked "did she transfer to art school?"
Then she looked at me with a gloomy face
And said "you don't know? Didn't you hear?"
She boarded a plane to Puerto Rico for summer vacation
She never made it to San Juan rather in the Pacific Ocean
When I heard those words my heart shattered inside my chest
The girl I had fallen for was gone
The worse thing is I never got to tell her how I felt
I know she was probably happy boarding the plane with a smile on her face
I couldn't tell her how I felt or how she enamored my anxious heart
So I turned to the liquor and lost my mind
I would suppress my feelings with every sip
And looking back I regret it
I guess I was stupid for not knowing how to handle the situation
But I wish you knew how you made me feel