To my first love.

July 8th 2017,
1:25 pm,

"Man I am utterly in love with you,
But you destroyed me,
You destroyed yourself as well.
We are both broken depressed people,
And my god,
I thought we would be forever.
But I was wrong,
So wrong,
If it weren't for my mother.
We would still be here,
Rocking with each other,
Loving each other,
Helping each other.
If it wasn't for my mother ruining us,
I would still be your babygirl.
The one who held your hand through out everything.
The one that would help you along the way with both of our depressions,
And the one who loves you unconditionally.
You are the one I dreamt about in every damn dream I've ever had since I met you.
You are the one I fanticide when we were friends.
You are the one man that I would do anything for.
You are the one person I would die for, kill for, and be there for the rest of my life.
I love you,
And when you broke up with me,
That was the worst day of my life.
Like honestly,
You heard me begging and pleading for you to come back,
I prayed to god,
And I'm atheist.
I prayed for the first time in my life.
And it didn't work.
Nothing worked.
I lost my other half,
My soul mate,
And the one person I've ever loved in my whole life.
I had real laughs and smiles with you.
I had true feelings for you.
And I've never had that with someone.
I usually get over someone in a day or two,
But I can't get over you.
I can't,
I love you baby so goddamn much.
And I can't live without you.
You saved my life,
Being friends with you,
Saved me from suicide. Having our small talks,
It helped me relazie that life isn't so bad and I shouldn't kill myself,
Because maybe some day I could be happy with someone like you.
And it destroyed me.
You destroyed me.
And I still think you are an amazing person,
And you did nothing wrong.
I forgave you for shattering my heart.
And you still said we couldn't be friends.
I would do anything to be in your life baby.
But I can't.
I love you Caden.
I always have since the moment I saw you.
And I'll never forget you,
You'll always have a place in my heart and I will take you back in a heart beat.
Thank you for being a part of my life.
Thank you for being my best friend,
Thank you for showing me everything I know.
Thank you for teaching me self love.
And to finally find myself once again.
Thank You, I love you so much Caden Sterling Bankston.
Thank you.

Love,
Kylie Sierra Musselman, the woman that will always love you."