Angel-baby28

I wish i never meant you

I wish i never meant you 

you hurt me I'm scared of you 

i was only 15 years old 

when you told me to lay down and stay there and don't say anything 

when all i did was cry because all the pain i was filling 

i told you to stop but you just keep going because you were feeding of the pain 

you were getting from me 

when you raped me more then once 

i had to take showers more the once to get the smell off of me but it didn't cover the scars that i had all over my body your hand marks where you pined me to the floor and where you cut me and tied me up to a chair

 i have nightmare every night i wake up screaming you took something away from me and i can never get it back 

i wish i never meant you so i didn't have to go trough this pain the scars that you gave me that i never wanted 

but 2 day after it happened my brother made take a pregnancy test and i came back pregnant 

with a little girl that i had at 16 years old i was still in high school 

my family told me i was to young to raise a child but i raised her until she was 4 years old and my brother

took her in until i finished high school i can have her back but he never gave her back i still get to talk to her and see her she is now 14 years old and i can see the moister in her but i also see me as well in her i love her so much but i still have the scars from when i was 15 years old and it will never go away. 

 

 

Comments2

  • Nicholas Browning

    Scars don't disappear. They simply fade. Time doesn't heal all of the wounds that we have, but it can lessen the burden. I know it's not easy to forget, but remember, you need to be there for your daughter. Best of luck, and thanks for sharing.

    • Angel-baby28

      thank you and your welcome and i know the man that did that to me is in prison for life

      • Nicholas Browning

        I'm glad he is. He deserves worse.

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      • Poetic Dan

        That's some raw truth. Thank you for sharing and having the strength that you have. I honestly take this deep breath after the tears for your words, letting them dry on my face hoping to relieve some of that pain from your Scars.
        Take good care



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