losing myself while losing parts of him

I am losing parts of him
my memories of his smile I thought would be forever stained in my mind are slowly disappearing like the toys i lost as a child
The memories of Meaningful  kisses  has slipped out of my mind like the painful childhood memories my mind represses.
i am losing parts of him like the strains of my hair
i am losing parts of him everyday
slipping out of my reach 
he is disappearing form my mind
what do i have left to remember him by?
his love letters were burned into my mind
his touch was in graved into my skin
but now i can't recall the smell of his  shirts i slept in
i can't remember the way his face glowed when i told him i cared
i can't recall the feeling he used to give me 
and i healing or just losing my mind