My Motions

Oh Im so happy yes you asked me and yes i replied

Does it make it true? Well....

Sometimes I lie and say Im so happy because thats just what they want to hear its a normal response sometimes you feel like you have to like you need to lie in order to be considered normal, ok , & ,sane

But really your just going through the motions going through everyday life walking eating drinking keeping up hygiene sometimes even running wow so exciting😪 but the one thing you can't do that you want to do sometimes afraid to do is sleep

Sleep is like making time go fast and when you get the hang of it you sometimes don't get up its like a trip to a place that you never gone before 👽 or at least peacefully you either pass out crying or some can't cry they just stay up until the morning light and wait until there brain shuts down atomaticly by its self because your not going to help the process

You go to work or school putting on a play if people knew you do this everyday you would get an award for best actress/actor did you know I was tittled sweetest and happiest person in school and now your reading this surprise nice to meet you my names Tia I would shake your hand but now Im considered as depressed and its very contagious so stay away 😡 although I don't feel anything sad nor happy so to me Im as balanced as I have ever been

Oh why do I act so happy well why be sad all day when you can be happy for yourself and others share joy and smile but really I enjoy making people smile but when they know what they would call a depressing back story they would look at me different maybe even see me as fake 😅 that makes me laugh

 Some reason I don't care I feel nothing when things occur it's not a good thing nothing to brag about but it sometimes keeps me safe it has good things and bad things to it so you confront me when you see me sad then I say Im fine afterwards and your not satisfied but if It started to act like I wanted to you won't be very satisfied this is how it would have been

Hi how are you😁  -stairs at you-😒  you ok🤔  
😤😧😑.....-walks away-   wow ok rude 😡

Im not being rude Im just saving your time Im a waste after I explain you can't do anything about it so its a waste of time knowing

Going through the motions is like being cut but glass because when you get cut you don't feel anything for a while until you notice
when you do you feel pain until it heals and some don't heal

Some don't last either oh well some don't stay gold but it would not hurt trying so don't judge me when I say Im fine Im just trying to get through my motions

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