Reaching out

I shriek from the distance that time has stretched 
To call to a friendship its silence could wreck 
I'm vexed 
'Cos you are to me who I want to be; 
Thee whom I want to reflect 
Perplexed, I seek the space beyond sight 
Beyond wish, apprehension, and thoughts come to light 
Where I can speak of myself from the heart while still saying 
What is, to social etiquette, right 
There's comfort in blindness where voices connect 
I'm a wreck 
All around me, it's all that all see 
And I don't want you to know next 
But meeting you there is all my growth needs 
And its fear is what keeps me in check