Ashes

I found you

Only it wasn't you, it was what remained

You were beautiful 

You were ugly

You were amazing 

You were terrible 

I found your ashes spread across the ground

My tears washed some of them away

How had you burned like this?

Should it not have been the other way around?

You had dark, but grey ashes 

I knew they were yours 

I found you

I wish it had been you

And not what remained of you 

You were mine

You were not

I was yours

I was not

Those ashes you left behind mixed with scarlet

Now I'm burning the same way

I'm seeing my own ashes

But I'm no longer seeing yours 

How had we burned like this?

Should it have been not at all?

I have light, but grey ashes 

I knew they were mine

I found you, I did

 I lost you 

Yes

I did