selfish bitch..

Selfish Bitch..
You see she tricked me.. she played me for a fool now im bare and empty but full of emotions.. these feelings I can't explain I'm losing it I can't take this pain. Now I act as if nothing's wrong playing as if were strong but really I want to cry cuz you see my love left me when she left a big part of me died. I've done everything to win her heart but I don't think I'll ever get her back. It's kind of crazy when you finally stop crying cuz that's when I thought about dying and that's when shit got difficult. Things I never thought about and feelings and never felt before we're jumping at me from all angles like I were in geometry class for the first time all over. So many problems with to many letters and no matter which way I went at it I had the wrong answer. I guess I'm like your feather Stuck In The Wind this is where I stand catch me before I land.. I started cutting but the wounds were deep enough.. and that's when I told everyone to fuck off.. I just wanted to be alone I would like myself in my room and get stone blown out of my mind best weed one of a kind all the time is that a crime.. I first met her when I was 12 and she wasn't selfish or bitch. But I dread the day that I lose her cuz without that I'm not who I am.. if you've been through what I've been through then will understand. That weed to me it's like the stands to the oceans these emotions I can't explain except for one word my new girl's name