Candlewitch

the witness

 

 

The Witness

 

light a white candle

to soothe your mind,

and hide the scandal

of memory's bind.

 

deny your sins

and dirty deeds,

until your head spins

and your mind bleeds.

 

but deep down...

you sit on things done,

while you drown

the smoking gun.

 

it just doesn't figure;

you're not to blame.

didn't "pull the trigger"

why own the shame?

 

but, just maybe,

sitting and viewing

destruction of the baby...

is just as bad as the doing!

 

12-25-16

Comments10

  • burning-embers

    Thought provoking strong work my friend. Yes who indeed is the killer, in this now accepted crime against humanity - the parent, the paid executioner, the government or society. We condone this. We must accept and share the guilt for every murder.

    • Candlewitch

      dear b-e,

      my mother wanted to have my father committed to a mental hospital(as revenge when they separated.) she went so far as having papers drawn up. mom and my two sisters signed the papers. I refused and was so angry that I had a fit! they knocked me down and sedated me! but I told my Dad about their plan when I saw him next, so he was prepared. there was nothing wrong with him...just my rabid mother!!! thanks for responding!

      *hugs, Cat

      • burning-embers

        Cat. I guess i have completely misread your work here and i apologise, i am sorry. Please feel free to delete my comments because they now seem quite inapropriate.

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      • Louis Gibbs

        It is so true ... as a child growing up in a dysfunctional family you don't know that it isn't the norm. This strong poem hits home, Cat. Well done!

        • Candlewitch

          thank you Louis,

          I hope that I have not made you uncomfortable with this write.

          *hugs, Cat

          • Louis Gibbs

            Just in passing ... no problem.

          • orchidee

            Hmm, I find it a bit unusual after this, that your MALE alter ego comes out of the 'cupboard' now and again, when a FEMALE had done such dreadful things in your family.

            • Candlewitch

              dear O.

              as a FEMALE, I felt completely powerless and without worth. I wanted to kill my mother and sister's for what they had done to me. as a MALE, I was able to empower myself. back when I was a kid female children had no power. because it was ingrained in me "thou shalt not kill" eddy styx "puts his rage on the page" instead of me acting out physically. eddy styx victimizes bad females!!!
              that should explain it to you. thanks, Cat

            • WriteBeLight

              Sorry for this experience Candlewitch. Horrible! I am glad you could write about it. You did a great job putting it to paper!

              • Candlewitch

                thank you WBL! I hope you are having a great weekend 🙂

                *hugs, Cat

                • WriteBeLight

                  I am thanks! Hope the same for you! Done with my chores, so now from some fun!

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                • Azura Nightsong

                  Very interesting and powerful poem. I am sorry for what happened. Some people.... I just don't understand it.

                  • Candlewitch

                    I'm with you, Azura....I don't understand them either...and the scare the crap outta me most of the time! I'm pretty much a loner... thanks for your response!

                    *hugs, Cat

                  • Michael Edwards

                    What a horrid story - I really feel for you - pleased you are able to write about it so well.

                    • Candlewitch

                      thank you Michael,

                      they say that writing is the best therapy 🙂 so I do so.

                      *hugs, Cat

                    • Fay Slimm.

                      So tragic your account of family dysfunction dear Cat this verse had its power no doubt from those terrible times- - coping must birth inner strength which your writing has shown. - Big Cornish hugs for sharing sich childhood my friend.

                      • Candlewitch

                        dear Fay,

                        a big American *hug back to you!!! as an American, I am a bit of a mutt... my ancestry is: English, Irish and Scottish, LOL.

                        *hugs, Cat

                      • FredPeyer

                        Cat, this is so powerful and emotional. I admire you for putting these words on paper and hope that the act of writing it out will be at least a tiny little bit of help for you.
                        As a parent, I have no words for what happened to you, it is so far out of the norm, it is inconceivable.

                        • Candlewitch

                          dear Fred,

                          my mother had severe mental problems, as a sociopath. my middle sister is also a sociopath. the oldest sister was just very weak and went along with the person in power. writing about it does help. Just before mom died, she asked my forgiveness. for the sake of letting her die in peace, I lied...I said I forgave her...still I haven't been able to do it for true...I wish I could and give it up 🙁 thank you for your thoughts.

                          *hugs, Cat

                        • Goldfinch60

                          Such a powerful write and so very sad. Much respect to you in being able to write about it.

                          • Candlewitch

                            thank you for your kindness, Goldfinch!

                            *hugs, Cat

                          • malubotelho

                            Reading this I can see how luck I was and still am with my family. It might be why I have that soft side with me. I'm sorry for you Cat. No one deserves to have an unloving mother but I know a lot of the pain is transfered generation to generation through family mistreating.

                            • Candlewitch

                              dear malu,

                              you are so very right!!! her mother was a bitter woman, who was a christian fanatic. and she abused my mother. g-maw beat her in the name of "THE LORD" to beat the "Devil" out of her! thank you for your understanding.

                              *hugs, Cat

                              • malubotelho

                                Welcome. I just inbox you about my writing about murder as I had promised you. Hope you like it.

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