Answered Prayers

When I was twenty years old, I met someone who I thought was the one.
But he was someone who didn't value me and I realized til were done.
He took the only thing I had left of me because I thought his words were true.
How crazy was I to believe him when he said "I love you"
But it didn't feel right when I said it back, I should have saw it as a sign.
But he now had a part of me, and that made me blind.
When I found out all the tings he told me were lies
For months my days and nights, were full of cries
For the longest time, I thought my life is nothing without this man
But two years, yes years, I realized it can.
That's when I met someone else, I thought okay this could be it
I wanted it so bad to be it.
He was cute, sweet, had a southern charm
But being 12 hours away could do a relationship harm
I tried, went down to see him and even considered calling Tennessee home
He was scared and that was time wasted. I was back to being alone
Fast forward a couple months later when drunken confessions lead to things you never saw coming.
When I had no idea what was becoming
Someone I'd known for years and really couldn't stand
Was now in front of me but ever wanted to be my man
I gave it all to someone that wanted only one part of me
And I just wanted to feel wanted so I chose not to see
I thought maybe eventually, we could be something.
But you can't have a relationship with an old "boy" that only wants one thing.
Not only that but I wasn't the only one he was doing that too and he loved my best friend
So finally after a few months, I left that end.
And then I became someone I didn't know.
Drunk hook-ups and doing things that I would normally say no.
It's like I just needed some kind of attention, didn't care if it was good or bad. And I know just how ashamed I'd make my mom and dad.
I never told them but I was drinking all the time and tried to be with someone who was once a drug dealer.
But I didn't care because I thought being with anyone would be some kind of healer.
When that didn't work, I gave yo. I wasn't going to throw myself into anything in order to fill an empty space.
That was until I saw his face.
This guy had wanted to be with me before but that was while I was wasting my time and my life away.
And then we didn't talk for a while until that day.
He wanted me to come see him at the bar.
I didn't want to go, until my best friend pushed me a little far.
"Okay I'm gonna go."
We talked like we were old friends.
And as I was getting to leave, he kissed me and I wasn't ready for my night to end
He kissed me til almost sunrise
And I know right then, I finally found my prize.
And two days later he told me he loved me as crazy as that may sound.
But what's even crazier, I loved him too, my heart was full, my love was found.
He's everything I could ever want and everything I need.
He loves everything even what I hate about me.
He's perfect in my eyes, there's nothing I would ever fix
And now that he's away, he's all I ever miss.
His voice is my favorite sound, his smile makes me smile.
His laugh makes me laugh and his touch drives me wild.
His eyes tell a store and I see how much loves me.
And I know one day, we'll be a family.
Right now, were four hours apart and a month from the last touch, last hug, last kiss
It's for the future but he's all I miss.
I know I said that before, people may think we're crazy, and he's done things that has made me mad
But there's no one I'd rather have with me, no one could ever make me this glad.
And looking back...I really had no idea what love was...
Love is laughing just because
Love is looking forward to the next day but being sad to go to sleep
Love is giving that person your heart to keep.
Love is trusting someone after being betrayed before
And being in love has no time limit. Could be one day, three months, two years...forty four.
Love is a feeling and nothing can compare
Love is him making me feel beautiful with messy hair
And as I sit here I wonder how In the world I could have ever lived without this MAN in my life, without him by my side.
He's my best friend, makes me feel alive.
What I'm trying to say is, you aren't always going to alone, someone's gonna walk in when you aren't looking for them
And I'm here to tell you, you won't know when.
And it's going to change your whole world.
And I PROMISE you're gonna thank God that it never worked out with anyone before. ❤️