At age 12
you left me alone
in the dark
you left me for
another woman
you took my heart
and crushed it to the ground.
You would think
that I wouldn't see through your lies?
your dishonesty?
In and our of my life
you were the only affection
the only connection you gave
was through prison walls.
When you left me and my family
you left me in my own prison
If I could change
the past
would you numb my pain?
Would you be the father
every girl dreams of?
the father I have longed for?
All you gave me
nothing but dried up tears
with a serving of a broken heart.
Because of you I found
love in all of the wrong places
I gave my heart and soul
to little boys
only to have them returned
broken beyond repair.
Because of you
I was chasing love
like a dream
hoping a boy would
fill the void you left
only to have them
to trample me
and leaving me
to suffer.
All you gave me father,
nothing but dried up tears
with a serving of a broken heart
Because of you
my trust is shattered
I cry myself to sleep
each night
wondering what I did
to make you leave
At age 20 the void you left
won't go away. If it wasn't
for my mother
my grandfather may he rest in peace
I'd be six feet under.
Now you try to be a father
20 years later why now?
20 years later why?
The curtain has been closed
you had your chance.
Because of you
a demon named depression
lingers with in me.
All you gave me
nothing but dried up tears
with a serving of a broken heart.
Please God,
I know you see
what is on my heart
Grant me serenity
heal my heart
I'm tired of hurting.
Dear God,
can you hear me?
I am so lost
I feel alone
God take this burden from me
I feel like I can't breathe.
To my father,
why come back now?
When I need you
where were you?
Am I worthy to you?
Am I good enough?
All you gave me
nothing but dried up tears
with a serving of a broken heart
Do you think I can ever trust you?
Do you think I'll ever let you in?
All you gave me
nothing but dried up tears
with a serving of a broken heart
Am I worthy?
Am I good enough?
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Author:
DarkAngelPoetry (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: My father left me and my family at the age of 12 after a lie that changed my life forever, he left me to be with another woman. Through the years I carried the pain of him leaving me and him being in and out of my life, He is a chronic liar and through the years he was in and out of jail which is the closet of affection I felt from him now at age 20 we are not on speaking terms. This piece describes the pain he caused in an open letter to him.
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Comments1
I can feel the pain, the anger and deep down, the desire for the missing love from father. He was lost, he need to be healed too. Maybe, you are the cure. Love your poem.
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