Dried Up Tears (With a serving of a broken heart).

darkangelpoetry

At age 12

you left me alone

in the dark

 

you left me for

another woman

you took my heart

and crushed it to the ground.

 

You would think

that I wouldn't see through your lies?

your dishonesty?

 

In and our of my life

you were the only affection

the only connection you gave

was through prison walls.

 

When you left me and my family

you left me in my own prison

If I could change

the past

would you numb my pain?

 

Would you be the father

every girl dreams of?

the father I have longed for?

 

All you gave me

nothing but dried up tears

with a serving of a broken heart.

 

Because of you I found

love in all of the wrong places

I gave my heart and soul

to little boys

only to have them returned

broken beyond repair.

 

Because of you

I was chasing love

like a dream

 

hoping a boy would

fill the void you left

only to have them

to trample me

and leaving me

to suffer.

 

All you gave me father,

nothing but dried up tears

with a serving of a broken heart

 

Because of you

my trust is shattered

I cry myself to sleep 

each night

wondering what I did

to make you leave

 

At age 20 the void you left

won't go away. If it wasn't

for my mother

my grandfather may he rest in peace

I'd be six feet under.

 

Now you try to be a father

20 years later why now?

20 years later why?

 

The curtain has been closed

you had your chance.

Because of you

a demon named depression

lingers with in me.

 

All you gave me

nothing but dried up tears

with a serving of a broken heart.

 

Please God,

I know you see

what is on my heart

Grant me serenity

heal my heart

I'm tired of hurting.

 

Dear God,

can you hear me?

I am so lost

I feel alone

God take this burden from me

I feel like I can't breathe.

 

To my father,

why come back now?

When I need you

where were you?

 

Am I worthy to you?

Am I good enough?

 

All you gave me

nothing but dried up tears

with a serving of a broken heart

 

Do you think I can ever trust you?

Do you think I'll ever let you in?

 

All you gave me

nothing but dried up tears

with a serving of a broken heart

 

Am I worthy?

Am I good enough?

  • Author: DarkAngelPoetry (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 15th, 2017 17:52
  • Comment from author about the poem: My father left me and my family at the age of 12 after a lie that changed my life forever, he left me to be with another woman. Through the years I carried the pain of him leaving me and him being in and out of my life, He is a chronic liar and through the years he was in and out of jail which is the closet of affection I felt from him now at age 20 we are not on speaking terms. This piece describes the pain he caused in an open letter to him.
  • Category: Letter
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Comments1

  • myself and me

    I can feel the pain, the anger and deep down, the desire for the missing love from father. He was lost, he need to be healed too. Maybe, you are the cure. Love your poem.



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