Between here and there

You lost me somewhere between here and there.
Somewhere between guilt and perfection.
Between happiness and despair.

U never knew how to listen to me.
The things I wanted from you.
The things I needed you to see.

I was only your temporary distraction.

    A drawing that you designed,
    perfecting every line,
    consuming all of your time,
    until you realize it's slightly off and you                     
    cant erase that one little blemish
    and it can't be finished

so you crumble it up and throw it in the trash can.

I was just a project.
With potential,
Yet far from perfect.

A lie
 you told yourself you needed.
A truth
 you couldn't convince yourself to believe      
 In

When you were having a good day,
I was the universe unfolding into vast realities,
responsible for holding your moon and stars in place.
And with the swiftist slip,
I was the supernova
imploding into an endless Black hole,
the determinant of your unfortunate fate.

Such a heavy burden to carry for someone so insignificant.
The cause and effect,
the everything and nothing,
the psychiatrist and the patient.

When I was begging for attention I didn't want you to scrutinize
all of my imperfections that i tried to disquise
But while I let yours slide and looked past them,
You picked me apart creating an infinite chasm.

Between us

A relationship should be built on trust,
A oneness.
You were always too busy to cater to my loneliness
or too overconcerned with my loneliness to be busy

It was always my fault,
I was always to blame
U pointed ur finger to divert your shame.

You lost me somewhere between here and there.

Somewhere between i love you and
....
I dont care