how i forgot

every word he said just wasn't clicking. i thought we had the same perspectives. i thought that our beliefs and our imaginations had always lined up especially when it came to the important values that molded our personalities together. that had molded us together. how did i not see it. how did you hide your true self for so long. how did i not see that your scars weren't real and that the strings that tied us together were not only invisible but imaginary. the memories of you had stopped recording and i was beginning to forget what we were together. i was beginning to forget what your hair smelt like and how your hands rested on my shoulder blades and the way you smiled from the corner of your mouth and how that mouth had kissed me a million times before. the muscle memory of you was utterly absent. i would see you and instead of my cheeks heating and becoming a stunning rose red, my body was cold and my heart was undeniably stale. and that is how i forgot you loved me.