Breaking patterns, don't scream

What I'm about to write I'm guilty of doing
The reason I do this is to try and improve

Raising your voice should only be done in a few ways, the song that you sing or something is far way.

For when it is done at any other time, my stomach goes in nots and in kicks fight or flight.

Before I knew better my emotions would get the better of me, justifying my actions or a need to validate my belief.

My training now is to not destroy my self, when the guilt hits for not controlling it more, maybe even stuck in others thoughts of how they feel towards me.

I was once told my writing is so depressing and that I should be careful that it looks like I'm unstable. Yes at that moment in time I was but years later I've flipped that board!

For my life is my story that I choose to turn around, to the point that I'm so close to no longer talking negative or a frown, never really having to shout and my emotions are nearly all under control.

So I write this words for me to see, hopefully building on what I'm trying to achieve.