AVIS

(YEAR 2)

AT WHAT POINT DOES IT GET EASIER TO COPE WITH ANY RANDOM THOUGHT LEADS TO LAUGHTER OR TEARS.JUST THE OTHER DAY I WAS FEELING SOME TYPE OF WAY. EMOTIONAL ABOUT MEMORIES WE ONCE SHARED. YOU BEING GONE EXPOSED THE REAL, ALSO SHOWED JUST HOW MUCH YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME AND I GAINED THE STRENGTH OF LETTING GO WHAT I CAN'T CONTROL. AVIS YEAR 2 AND MOST DAYS THEN OTHERS IT STILL SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY. I LISTEN TO SOME OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS, IT HELPS ME FEEL CLOSE TO YOU. A BOND THAT WILL NEVER GROW WEAK. CAN'T GET PASS THIS ABANDONMENT FEELING BUT I KNOW IT WAS'NT YOUR FAULT, I KEEP TELLING MYSELF IF IT  WAS UP TO UOI, YOU WOULD'VE NEVER LEFT. YOU WERE MY ACE, AT EVERY EVENT, PARTY, FUNCTION OR MINI GET TOGETHER. WE ENDED UP AT THE SAME PLACES EVEN WHEN IT WASN'T PLANNED. I LOVED YOU THEN AND STILL DO NOW. I WISH CANCER NEVER HAD TO STRIKE. I THOUGHT YOU BEING STRONG WOULD BE YOUR ADVANTAGE BUT HAT MEANT NOTHING TO YOU BEING CALLE HOME. MY AIM WAS TO PROVE TO YOU JUST HOW MUCH YOU MEANT TO LET YOU NO YOUR LOVE FOR ME I WILL NEVER FORGET. THE SUPPORT YOU SHOWED ME OVER THE YEARS KEPT ME BY YOUR BE SIDE UNTIL YOU TOOK YOUR LAST BEATH, PLAYING ALL YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AND HOPING YOU WOULD SPEAK, THAT A LIFE WITHOUT YOU I WOULDN'T MEET. I ASKED, I PRAYED, I BEGGED GOD TO SPARE YOU BUT IT WAS ALREADY TO LATE. YOUR TIME WAS HERE I WASN'T AMUSED BY WHAT I WAS ABOUT TO FACE. ANOTHER GRIEF A TASTE OF LOST AND SEPARATION FROM SOMEONE I DEEPLY ADORED. AVIS THERE ARE DAYS I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU AREN'T HERE BUT YOU TAUGHT ME ALOT AND I'M HONORED FOR THAT AND EVEN THOUGH TIMES GET HARD AND FULL OF TEARS I REMEMBER LOVING YOU AND HOW WARM IT FEELS.