My Addiction CrystalMETH

Note to self. . And then some
Who is that ?
When I look into the mirror , I am like Who is that .? I don't know .
All I know is a glimpse of who that person may have been .
I am ashamed at the nothing I've became.
There's these teenagers in my home , I know they are mine . they deserve the world. Help me find myself I have to give them what they need there mom back but I aint who I once was. Its like i am dead watching someone else play my role doing it all wrong .
But I have been like the only stranger in my home . I've been skating around the truth pointing fingers when all along , I was my own worst enemy I was the one who kept on an on when,I knew then an worse now that it was bad for me and made no concience desison to stop . now its like I've let my will power be held hostage so long I can't pay the bail . And I can't afford my habit I owe everyone money , I've betrayed the trust in the ones I love the most .I've allowed my selfish desires take over my ability to care . my self worth has become like the good will and the outer shell is like an addict that is addicted to stealing addicted to lying addicted. To the easy route and wishing and skeeming everyone and everything I come in contact with .
Even you , I've robbed you of your time . so thanks im an addict and I got my fix, now im going to go fuss and fight. Have sex and  watch porn all night...
#sorryImnotMeAnymore
-CRYSTALMETH I HATE YOU , YOU TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING .

WRITTEN BY;
CRYSTAL HILL