Shame on Me

why do you continue to hurt me and do what you do but in return I never do the same I've shown you loyalty and all you have shown me is pain do you take my love for granted all that I do for my family including you I guess it's all in vain your actions show a lot your words mean nothing every time you tell me you love me you always show me you're something else the opposite of you can either go both ways or one way but don't leave me confused I'm so tired of crying about the same stuff over and over broken promises you never there to pick me up after you make me fall you never there there willingly clean up your situations and your faults you never take full responsibility of your actions and how you continuously hurt our family you say you don't care well it shows and I found myself doing this over and over it doesn't make any sense I can see if I'm doing you wrong I brought you pain everyday I wake up I try my best to make sure that there's a smile on your face and that there is things that nothing can be replaced but I think that were replaced I should have used another because obviously you think that I am replaceable things are replaceable people are not cheat on act like you know that your childish ways has to stop then I look at myself and I know better and I know my worth and times I act like I don't but I really do I can't really get mad at you for playing me like a fool each time I Cry it just pisses me off trying to do right by the family trying to make sure my son has his father my daughter has her father no fingers pointed but then I realized I got to be pointing a finger at myself but thinking the everything is going to be okay and thinking things will change when the change has to be made Within Myself no one else so I suppose shame on me