Broken past

Believe me when I say I try
Try to not question your lifes routine
Try to live up to a fairy tale dream
Because I remember so much shattered glass
Its hard to move on from the past
I'm sorry I'm like FBI
Perusing my paranoia like I'm some investigating machine
I'm sorry I cant switch off
From what I've felt before
I'm sorry my brain doesn't function
Less questionable and insecure
But every instance in my past
Has trampled all over me
And for that all I feel is unsure
I'm sorry sometimes I'm weak and cry
I'm sorry I never feel enough
Or feel I need to ask you for love
I'm sorry I want to feel special for once
I'm sorry I'm just scared you will leave, hurt me or lie
But if all your memories where like mine
I'm sure you'd understand
So when I say I'm sorry and I try
I just want you to know
I don't need an angered figure
Telling me I'm paranoid
I need you to love me broken
And heal my insecurities
I need you to understand
And I just need you.