IN A Hole

It can not be death
as here I stand
A bottomless pit slowly filling with sand
I must be alive but yet I can't see Just a blur in my vision which can not be me
I can't get out I don't know how I got in
A game I'm playing that I'll never win
Someone else's smile all over my face
Thoughts in my head trying to keep up the pace
Trying to be myself and not knowing who I am
I need some help if you think you can

I want to stand here and I want to feel good
I am sick of living with an empty soul
I want to stand here and feel like I should
And not be trapped in a never ending hole

Everything that I do it seems to be wrong
Playing a game I didn't even know
Obsessions in my mind on repeat like a song
My brain cannot stop it is stuck on go

I need some help and I need a release
Someone to take this pain from my mind
Take away the stress and give me some peace
Never look back leave everything behind

I really never thought I could feel as I do
I always imagined it could never be true
But how wrong was I for having such thought
How wrong was I for depression I brought
All on my own feeling trapped inside
I tried my best but I could never hide
Because you can never hide from depression
Read that back I just taught you a lesson
It will find you
It will bring you down
Take away your feelings and make you frown
Pull yourself together they said everyone feels low
But NO
It cannot be done
One thing you must do and that is never run
Be strong
Be brave
And ask for help
It will be okay
But you have to say