Crimson Ray Above

Why am i so in pain? I regret this writing so i won't be in vain. Why does my skin burn when it is hot? Who said life would be hard fought? Whoever did was right because some days i would have sleepless nights. Life is hard by itself so most times i don't care about help. I'm a failure, I'm a sinner but mostly i can't forget a defender. I care for others more than myself i would rather have pain then have them go through hell. My life is a tug of war but i still wonder what am i fighting for. I'm struggling but somehow i manage, trying my hardest not to damage. What am i? Why am i here? How i will get through the next day is what i fear. I love my family with all my heart, but i wonder how much my heart will go far. Every beat in my heart counts, just how many beat do i have until i give out. Only GOD knows so i will rely on him, so today isn't the day to be grim. My mind is a endless hole of ideas, instead of a song just fixed on yeahs. Truth be told I'm not perfect, just like these celebrities who think they are worth it.