As I sleep

As I sleep, 

Push the knife in, let it slice deep to fix my problems. 

As I sleep,

Rearrange my insides, so I no longer look human.

As I sleep,

Keep me sleeping, make sure I miss everything. 

As I sleep,

Take advantage of the permission that I gave.

As I sleep,

Swear that I chose this and I knew the risk.

As I sleep,

Let me sympathise with what it is to be dead.

As I sleep,

Let me know that I will wake. 

As I sleep,

I cannot be sure I sleep at all.

As I sleep, 

I know they know, but I cannot seem to care.

As I sleep, 

Know I love.

As I sleep,

Know I'm scared, more than when I wake. 

As I sleep, 

Know I fully intend to wake.

As I sleep, 

Know I am not me, but a live experiment.

As I sleep, 

Let me sleep. 

As I sleep,

Be there,

Be there when,

Be there if.

Be there when or if I wake.

Be there.

Just be there.

As I sleep.