Traumatized

Traumatized by the words that I never said

By the things that I never did

All the unspoken words

Tell me your feelings and why I didn’t consider yours

Why I thought to bring you to tears

Thinking of all the things we did and all the things you experience

Don’t settle just let go cause all of you I don’t deserve

You deserve all of me but all of you is what I had

Tell me, tell me did I put you at your worst

Can you love or is it numb, just tell me your feelings

Eyes watery as you tilt your head to the ceiling

Fighting back words, fighting back tears, fighting for love

So anxious to get your attention and pour out my love

Some mistakes we live with, some mistakes help us grow

To tell you I love you, now you’ll never know

So enclosed awareness and guarded up against love to never know how to feel

Tell me do you know how to trust

So many lies with so many promises

So many words with no actions

Things will surely come to the light

Why does the heavy weight feel so light

Why does it yet weigh down on me

To have me think I could bring you back to me

Traumatized, traumatized, traumatized

Filled your head with questions and lies

All the things aren’t as bad as it seems or bad things aren’t as it seems

In held so many emotions you don’t know

Whether to cry out loud or hold in your screams

But to you I truly wish the best

So many unread messages and deleted texts

Feening for your love and your sex

Lord don’t let her experience anybody as her ex

Don’t fall for it

Don’t be another victim

Such a beautiful woman that’s been hurt for so long

The road ahead of you just seems to be going on for too long

All the weak emotions with such a strong woman