To the One

To the one I always push away,

To the one I always drag back,

To the one I always push away,

To the one I always get back,

I fear one day I will push you away, 

So hard that you don't come back.

 

To the one I constantly love and praise,

To the one I constantly hate and shame,

I know what I want, what I want is you,

But what I cannot decide, is if you too want to be mine.

 

To the one I share my feelings with,

To the one I hope to grow old with,

To the one who loves me unconditionally,

To the one who I my true bestie,

To the one who never judges me 

And always chooses to stand by me, 

To the one I love unconditionally

To the one, I hurt constantly,

 

To the one i love, 

 

I'm sorry.