I Sit and Wonder

I sit and wonder about all I could have done differently,I sit and think about all the changes you have made. About what we have made. To make us last, to make us grow.

I sit and wonder if it was different would our out come still be the same? I sit and wonder how you could have just gave up so sudden, I wonder if it was just between us;would we have made it work? Our families do not know what we went through,so how can you let them dictate how we should fix our issues?

I’m so sorry it turned out this way, I tried for years to fix our love. I love you my wife no matter what they say. Our kids and you mean the world to me, I’m sorry it didn’t work out, I never gave up until I had no choice, I’ll be here when you need me but I have to do it from a distance because you betrayed me.

I didn’t just lose my wife and kids, I also lost my best friends. My kids mean the world to me, so saying the shit you are out of spite just to hurt me, it’s really heartbreaking . I may not be perfect and may have flaws but I did everything to protect and love us within our homes walls. I sit and wonder.

Just give my kids a hug and a kiss. Let them know that they are special and their daddy will always miss them.