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Im a mixture of adhd
Social anxiety and Insecurities

Running from my memories
Like a wounded man in survival dreams

Everywhere i go
Its like a timestamp
Here comes a flashback
Oh god please just let me go

Back when it was 2012
And you felt like everyone else
Is better than yourself
You didn't have the courage to see it within yourself
Shoulders tucked
Head down
Thought you are the laugh of town
A teenage clown
Telling everyone you don't give a fuck
Kicking the bucket out from the noose
Gasping for air
*Dont want to hear
Hoping to block out the voice in your mind
Laughing

24
Now you've made it almost out
Look you've made it this far
Still have insecurities, anxieties, and ADHD
You wear them like a nasty scar
Because you think everyone sees you for what you are
A dummy whos got a mental problem
Call the institution
They'll dig through his cranium
talks to himself
Writing things all the time or humming a potential hymn

It's like I'm stuck in this cycle to
Just another day of deja vu
What am I supposed to do
I try to run
I try to fight
But these demons come to me at night
treat me like I'm a stepchild son

You wanted Fame and Fortune
You want your cake and eat it too