Love is a Killer

Everyone needs someone,

Everyone that doesn’t already has someone,

And those that have neither are drowned in sadness.

And right now I’m on the line,

Between drowning and needing.

I need you but can’t have you, which makes me hate you.

I hate you and yet I love you.

I see the galaxy in your eyes,

I can feel the kindness in your heart,

I hear the humor in your words,

I have been in love with you for ages.

And you have no idea.

All this time in oblivion,

Summer passes painfully,

And school starts all over again.

We part our ways,

You continue down your path,

I leave and take a new one,

Not by my choice,

But I have no option.

And so I slowly diminish day by day.

But then it changes,

The pain inside subsides,

The blanket of sadness is slowly pulled away.

Forgetfulness forcefully takes your hand to show you the way.

And all is happy and all is merry,

Gone is the weight you had to carry,

Nary is there worry for you,

No need to be warry,

Because all is happy and all is merry.

Then you see him,

Standing there,

Unaware,

Of your love.

And it triggers everything,

Sets off all the alarms,

Brings back every memory,

Forgetfulness leaves.

Right now I’m back on the line,

Between drowning and needing,

I need you but can’t have you, which makes me hate you.

I hate you, I love you.

I see the galaxy in your eyes,

I can feel the kindness in your heart,

I hear the humor in your words,

I have been in love with you for ages.

And you have no idea, all this time in oblivion.

I’m not ready for summer to pass painfully by,

For us to take our own separate paths again.

I had enough heartbreak the last time I did that

And I don’t think I can take it again.

We part our ways,

You continue down your path,

I leave and take a new one,

Not by my choice, not his time.

I’m not waiting to forget love again.

I can’t do it.

So this time I’m taking a completely new path.

One no one else would ever let me take.

But I don’t care. I’m not thinking about anyone else anymore,

Because no one else stopped to think about me.

So I go take a walk to the hills,

I pick a hill, the one with the amazing tree,

I climb to the top of the hill and lay down next to the tree,

I look up at the twisting roots and trunk of the tree,

All the way up to the leaves,

And farther than that, to the beautiful stars beyond.

I lay there and lay there think awhile,

As the pain subsides and the weight slowly lifts,

And then it’s over. You’ve taken the new path,

You won’t wake up ever again, won’t have to feel the pain.