Why do i continue to torture myself?
like i haven't endured enough of that from you
you tore my heart right out of my chest
caused tears to pour out of my eyes like a never ending stream
you left me wondering why i didn't deserve to be loved
and yet i still cant let you go
Everyday i check your socials
and watch your life in pictures like i used to watch you sleep
my heart yearns for what we used to be
buy you aren't who i thought you were
you're cold hearted, heartless even
you ruined me and ill never know why
the answers lay with you, and you lay with her
She's the one who you loved enough to leave me for
it took her 6 days to worm her way into my place
the place i thought of as a home for 462 days
my heart was home when we were together
nobody understood my struggles like you
you had me dreaming of our life together
talking about how in only one years time we'd have a home
and then you changed your mind
You had never loved me
you'd been playing your game for over a year
pulling me along because i was convenient in your life
you had never appreciated me, its something we both new
id learned to accept it, purely because i was in love with you
And then you let me go
only you didn't really let me go did you?
you messed with my head for a further 3 months
drunk, calling me and texting me, calling her a slut
emotionally manipulating me, saying that you needed me
that you were choosing me
that you would want me as long as i wanted you
it was all lies
the final night you called
you asked me to tell her ex about your dirty little secret
you'd been sleeping together for weeks while they were still dating
you'd done the 'right thing' and told me after the first time and broke my heart
it was then i realised it had all been about her
i was your game to get her back because you loved her and she broke you
kind of like you had done to me
it just proved you'd never loved me, had never even cared for me
because my feelings weren't important
now you're back together, after all of the drama she caused
after the pain she put the both of us through
she was still the one that you chose
i don't know how long it'll take for my heart to mend
whether it ever will, will i ever stop loving you?
the first man who stole my heart
the first man to break my heart
i hope that the day i forget you comes quickly
because the pain is too much to bare
M.
- Author: thewanderingheart ( Offline)
- Published: December 21st, 2017 20:41
- Comment from author about the poem: this is a poem written from a very raw personal experience. I hope there is someone out there who can relate to these feelings in some way, honestly this is more for myself to vent any emotions. I would love to here any feedback though! x
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Comments1
I had been thought a similar experience . Anyways things will get better . Venting is a way to clear the mind . So never stop venting away 🙂
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