5 minutes worth a life time of pain!

I hurt everyday for what I did too you so to spend 5 more minutes with you would be worth reopening every wound an pain I have hide under the lies. I would give everything up just for those 5 minutes now that I know that. knowing that hurts more then anything. more then looking back on what we had, more then knowing I screwed everything up between us. But to spend 5 minutes with you one last time would hurt twice as bad just knowing it would be the last 5 minutes. Even being so I would take the pain the hurt the depression, The long nights lying awake just to have that 5 minutes with you. I wish I could explain but it would nor sink in like it should my "excuse" for my actions would never settle in your mind the way I see them. To you it is only an excuse even though for me it was reality for the things that happen destroyed me an I could not cope the way I should have. after all the bad I would still go back an remarry you a thousand times over an go throw every single pain again just to be with you well I had you. Now days I just want to see you an maybe have the chance to talk with you for just 5 minutes, even with the 100 percent possibility of hurting all over again. I would take it all just for those 5 minutes with you, I will always be sorry for what happen and will always wait for your call or email. just for the chance of those 5 minute.