You got me confused

You got me confused

it's been long since I've hanged with you but don't think That that means i miss you. Shit went down in the past that's fucked me up, you played me like a dog and I never gave up

You held my heart above my head, made me think we had something great and unsaid, I looked at you thinkn "damn... shes been through shit, i want her to live the life she deverves and want to be the one she never forgets" I always did what I could to make you happy even if it ment going out of my way, I'd give you shit, walk far as I needed too, even get in trouble for you. All that was done just so you could try and fuck my friend, you might not think that was a big deal but it got to me. I went to give you your bag and from the moment I saw you I wanted to tell you I love you, I wanted to say I love you more than anything and just understand why you did that. Another part of me wanted to say I fucking hate you, I didn't even care why, I just wanted you to know I hated you more than I felt possible and didn't want to see you again.

All I did was try to help you, tell you what you could do to change your life, make things better for yourself and I. You didn't want to listen tho, you wanted to run a muck and do drugs, ruin your life and lose your friends. Do the opposite of what I asked and for what reason??, just to fuck with me I guess. You had and have me confused beyond belief, I feel like I want you and think you being gone is a relief. I spent so much time on you that I couldn't even get to know myself, I'm still figuring out who I am and why I do the things I do, before all my actions and words were based off my love for you. You say your sorry and you don't know why you did what you did, it dosent matter tho cause your still the same hoe and I'll never forget.

I don't know what the fuck I'm even talking about, nothing seems to make sense coming out my mouth. All I know is I miss the way you made me feel, it felt like true love, something you never considered giving me.