Feeling

Since they left this house is empty

never to be enough never to be plenty

im told I deserve it

worst man of the century

after all she’s the judge and she’s the jury

wish I could switch of the way I feel

but it won’t subside and it will not yield

i love them always and love them still

but it’s not for me to bend her will

should i stand up and continue the fight

or succumb to the everlasting light

would they all understand and all forgive

that without my family no reason to live

night after night the drink the drugs

replacing the feeling of kisses and hugs

for now let’s try one more day

maybe tomorrow feeling will go away