Medicated Night

The day has come again,

For these pills to pass my lips,

Hope and pray that they take this pain away

Don't worry about me.

Ill be okay some day.

Maybe not today.

But hopefully one day soon. 

The pain will never really end. 
I can only hope for the best.

I can only hope to see the sky one last time.

Forgive me please,

For the things that I do.

I don't really mean to hurt you.

Forgive me also,

For the things that i say.
I really don't mean
to sound rude today.

Know that no matter what,

I do love you. 
and that honestly,

I want to grow old with you.

I want you to be happy. 

I want you to be calm.

And one day I want you in all.

We will speak those vows.

For better or for worse.
As long as we are together.
That pain I once felt.
will Be a distant memory.

One day we will have a home,

with the pitter patter of small feet

Maybe not today 

or even next week. 

But one day in the future. 

You and i will be so happy.

For better or for worse. 

Baby I love you. 
and i cant wait to tell the tale.

Of the two strangers

who learned to love,

who learned to grow,

and who learned all isnt bad.

My love you are so special.

I can see it all now.

I will land this awesome job

and we will start it new.

A job,

A home,

An amazing kitchen.

many anniversaries.

A wedding.

A family.

And all will be better.

And all will be perfect.