We've become nothing

It sucks to think,  that if the world ended or i ended,  i wouldn't know if you would even be apart of that day, if you even knew how many times i checked to see if you messeged me back. I dont like going to sleep feeling like you arnt even apart of my life,  feeling like I'm an object, feeling like i lost you too.  You have become one of my bestfriends but i dont even feel like we are friends.  What we are, is nothing.   When with eachother, we fight to stand our ground, we put on an act. We arnt ourselves.  We are damaging eachother so much.  Im already trying to be your freind,  but me as a freind. I would chew ur head off.... but because im in love with you,  i cant say the words i would say to a friend. When i do say things, i can feel ur pain, i can feel how u already know.  Your a butterfly. So beautiful and gorgeous yet so delicate and fragile, but humans dont care to see how fragile it is, only to duplicate or destroy, because there simple jealous.