"Dear Dispiritedness"

I'm addressing to let you know, 
That I don't have anything else to give,
Seemingly my hope of life has diminished,

What other can I give to thee,
The scattered air that I gasp,
This request is not for that of me,
It is for the benevolence of those that I love,

The ones that love me as I do them,
I didn't distance myself I was selfish,
I guess they are less of that assessment,
Either way I wish to spare their squalor,

You can deliver torment to my body,
However may my spirit be at ease,
For those that care this is paramount,
May they not have angst or misery,

I inquire to you dispiritedness,
Satisfy my plea is recede me for now,
We can exist as inwardly,
Just equitably spare my life,
FOR NOW ,