nowhere

I have given up hope.
where has that lead me?
It just stops and then leads. nowhere nowhere
nowhere nowhere. 
left right no matter its like a dead beat. 
my head acks and i think that im never leaving.
All my thoughts carry up like a balloon.
slowly going away or just shrinking.
I hate to think what will happen, if i reach rock bottom.
This has gotten me nowhere nowhere nowhere nowhere.
why cant things just go away?
why cant i just hide away?
My thoughts secret but my mouth open.
i got to watch it.
I cried for help before, it lead me to a door.
I reached out side and all was black, no sun light.
My heart stops beating for seconds at a time.
I just wish someone will help me.
All your hate has gotten me
Nowhere nowhere nowhere nowhere
All this pain leads me too believe i've gotten
Nowhere nowhere nowhere nowhere.
And now im slowly dieing underground.
Everything fading there is no sound.
Everything acks without pain i wont be me.

Is there someone who actual cares?
Someone who can wipe my tears?
A person who i hate was a person in
my crime.